Books I am so scared to read. Ahh! (That’s me being scared)

I read a lot of YA. More specifically, I read a lot of popular YA. Most specifically of all, my TBR at any given time looks like I took a list of every mainstream author + every anticipated release + every book that is inescapable in anyone’s Goodreads feed, threw it on the ol’ to-read list, and hoped for the best.

This has a lot of fun effects. Lots of people to talk to about the book! Lots of reviews from trusted sources to read! Lots of fun when I inevitably hate it!

Scratch that last one.

The downside is that reading hyped books is so scary. What if you don’t like it? What if you don’t like it, and everyone else did? What if you don’t like it, and one specific friend whose opinion you care about did???

I’m shuddering right now. Just straight up shivering in fear.

Anyway, here are the books I’m scared to read, whether because they’re hyped, because they’re long, or because I fear failure more than anything else and am plagued by the concept that I might be disappointing even one person with any small action that I do.

What? No. I’m fine.

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Emma by Jane Austen


I’m saving this to be my last Jane Austen, which means I still have to get through Mansfield Park (which will be lowkey bad) and Love and Freindship (which is not a real book). But I’m saving this to be my last Austen! She’s my favorite! And also my name is Emma! I can’t hate this. I’ll die.

But this is…not that many people’s favorite Austen. A lot of people hate the main character? The titular Emma her very self? Why did I play myself like this.

There’s Someone Inside Your House by Stephanie Perkins

Stephanie Perkins used to be my favorite. An auto-buy author for the ages, and also just someone whose books I anticipated hard. This is because I loved both Anna and the French Kiss and Isla and the Happily Ever After. Except guess what? I reread Isla and it sucked so hard. The hardest ever. And I was never under the impression that Lola and the Boy Next Door was good.

I guess I feel like if I hate this book then I pretty much hate Stephanie Perkins. Or at least dislike her. Also the average Goodreads rating for this book is through the goddamn floor so that’s not promising.

A Conjuring of Light by V.E. Schwab

There are a lotta reasons for me to be afraid to read this book. I mean, like. It’s hyped. People are big into it. Yadda yadda.

But also A Gathering of Shadows, the second book in this series, is the worst ever and I hated it so much oh my god. Like I hated it to a laughable degree. Stupid Lila Bard. Worst most antifeminist character ever. Ugh.

Anyway. I’m reading this book out of stubbornness, or I will, but also it’s incredibly long and I don’t want to read it so it will nearly without a doubt put me into a reading slump. What could be more frightening than that?

Here I Am by Jonathan Safran Foer

I love Jonathan Safran Foer so so so so so so sos os sososososososososo much. So much. I have based this VERY passionate opinion on exactly two (2) books: Everything is Illuminated and Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close. That is NOT a lot of data to base an opinion on, and yet if I stop loving Jonathan Safran Foer I won’t know what to do with myself. I’ll lose all sense of identity. I’m not exactly in a position to be turning away favorite authors.

Anyway. Another I-need-to-like-this-book-to-preserve-my-current-relationship-with-its-author-yet-the-average-rating-is-abysmal type situation.

Renegades by Marissa Meyer

Once upon a time, young innocent me rediscovered reading and was so sweet and cute and loved like every book she read. But none more than the Lunar Chronicles series, which, as she told everyone who would listen, was her very favorite. But then-me had dumb opinions (like “Instagram is fun” and “eating foods that aren’t cookies is a worthwhile endeavor”) and maybe her Lunar Chronicles support was dumb, too. What was definitely dumb is Marissa Meyer’s other fairytale retelling, Heartless. A very terrible book. And I’m not just saying that because I’m an Alice stan.

Well, maybe a little. Either way, if I don’t like Renegades, do I even like Marissa Meyer??? Also why is it so long???

The Hate U Give by Angie Thomas

I AM SO, SO, SO, SO, SO SCARED TO READ THIS BOOK. For so many reasons. One: extremely hyped. Two: everyone whose opinion I trust loved it. Three: might destroy my life/emotions/heart. Four: subject matter that could NOT be more important.

I should clarify that last one. I am very excited to read this book because it is about issues that are extremely significant to our society, which we should all consider and read up on. They’re so important. If I don’t like this book I’m going to be mad at myself for letting anything detract from how amazing it is that such a successful YA book could tackle such subject matter.

Providence by Caroline Kepnes

Ugh. Caroline. (By “Ugh. Caroline,” I mean, “Ugh, the emotional turmoil you have put me through, Caroline,” not an emotion of “ugh” directed at “Caroline.”)

I loved You so so so so much (polarizing opinion/potentially hot take). Then the sequel, Hidden Bodies, was like…excuse me? Pardon me? What is this hot dish of mediocrity you have served me? What is this mild attempt at ruining the first book you have brandished?

So. I guess I’m excited for this. But also I’m not excited for anything anymore and life is ruined.

The Cruel Prince by Holly Black

Do I even have to explain this one? Wait, actually, yes.

So there’s all the normal reasons – it’s overhyped, everyone has read it, my expectations are too high blah blah blah – but also Holly Black and I have a contentious relationship. I read the Spiderwick Chronicles growing up and that was fine. And then in 2016 I read The Darkest Part of the Forest and was like huh, it’s weird that this is literally Sexy Spiderwick. Spiderwick with Spice. And then I tried to read The Coldest Girl in Coldtown and DNFed the hell out of it.

So. We’ll see how this goes.

My Plain Jane by an excessive number of people

One of my hottest takes of all time (and earliest) is that I don’t think My Lady Jane is good. I know! How controversial. I am so very cool.

I just didn’t think it was funny, or that it was more interesting than the actual historical tale (or equally as interesting), and I had previously been operating under the impression that characters were supposed to be fun and likable and amusing, rather than the most annoying and/or boring and/or flat miscreants on the face of the earth.

But these fools are messing with Jane Eyre, and I am NOT going to stand by and take it!

The Raven King by Maggie Stiefvater

The Raven Boys: Read in July 2017.

The Dream Thieves: Read in July 2017.

Blue Lily, Lily Blue: Read in August 2017.

This book: still unread in April 2018. I AM SO SCARED AND NERVOUS. I DON’T WANT IT TO BE OVER. And also I just know that it won’t be better than BLLB, because BLLB is one of the best YA fantasy books of all time if not THE best, and so what’s even the point if it’s all downhill from here.

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Do you ever put off reading books you’re really excited for? What are some books you’re scared to get to?

Which of these should I just suck it up and read already?

60 thoughts on “Books I am so scared to read. Ahh! (That’s me being scared)

    • emmareadstoomuch says:

      it is very reassuring to me that you’re reading the lunar chronicles now and it’s going well!! i don’t trust past me at all. her opinions are suspect


  1. Sahi says:

    Ohh I do this all the time… There are a bunch of books that I bought because I really wanna read them but scared to pick up… The Song of Achilles, Children of Blood and Bone and The Belles are probably at the top of my list…
    As for Emma, I really hope you like it coz truthfully, I didn’t like the the MC… she can be quite annoying..

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  2. Rebecca Alasdair says:

    I normally go one of two ways. One, I buy a much-anticipated book the day it comes out, gobble through it that same day, then sit around feeling sad because it’s all over and cursing my lack of self-control. OR I will put off buying it for ages, then buy it, then having it sitting in my TBR for another lot of ages.

    I read The Final Empire, the first in Brandon Sanderson’s Mistborn trilogy last year. I loved it, just like most people who’ve read seemed to have loved it. I bought the sequel a week or so later, and I STILL haven’t read it. I’m scared to now! The fact that my favourite character is, well, dead may also be a contributing factor…

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  3. Vanessa says:

    I LOVED this post. And I’m OMG I thought I was a horrible person for putting of The Hate U Give. Haha. I put it off and bought it a MONTH ago and still haven’t read it.

    1. I’m very sorry, but I think There’s Something Inside Your House will disappoint… it started off interesting in the first half but then it went down hill for me.
    2. I’ve started and stopped and started and stopped A Gathering of Shadows… I may not finish it. I still consider myself a fan of V.E. Schwab and all things ADSOM. I thought the issue was me but… AGoS just may not be my thing at this very moment.
    3. ALICE IN WONDERLAND is one of my faves. I bought Heartless ages ago and tried to read it in February but I don’t think I got past the first two pages…. I’m going to read every review you linked in this post because we may or may not have similar reasoning on things.


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    • emmareadstoomuch says:

      1. The Hate U Give has been on my tbr foreverrrr and i haven’t even bought it yet so you’re one better than me!!
      2. i’m preparing myself for There’s Someone Inside Your House, literally no one likes that book
      3. A Gathering of Shadows is TERRIBLE. it’s a bad book. idk how you can be a fan of all things ADSOM only off the first book but i trust you
      4. alice’s adventures in wonderland is my absolute favorite book in the entire world. prepare for a Lot of hearing abt it if you read any other of my posts.



      • Vanessa says:

        I just read your official review on AGOS. I may have to pass on it considering I read the first 85 pages earlier this year and they were painfully dull for me. I realized how much I was forcing myself to like the sequel. Ah, well. I’m just going to pretend ADSOM is a stand-alone and leave it at that.

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      • emmareadstoomuch says:

        i say if ADSOM worked for you definitely let it stand on its own!!! i haven’t read ACOL yet ofc but AGOS is full garbage


  4. Anushka H. says:

    I finished A Gathering of Shadows a couple of days ago and I didn’t hate it (I thought it was fine) but I totally get your point – it wasn’t as good as ADSOM and I’m so scared of the hype which ACOL has received.
    You should definitely pick up THUG and The Raven King!! I really enjoyed The Cruel Prince too, though I found it a tad bit overrated.

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    • emmareadstoomuch says:

      i just hated a gathering of shadows mainly bc i hate lila bard

      i am excited for both THUG and the raven king but also like nervous?? but maybe the most excited for those two out of any. the cruel prince i feel could go either way but i won’t be heartbroken if i don’t like it


  5. fictionologyst says:

    I’ve only read Heartless and Renegades. Renegades is an average read, there’s nothing special about that book, it feels dull most of the time with no climax at all, so I think you should just skip it.

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      • fictionologyst says:

        Oh yes this book is so thick! I’m a big fan of Marissa Meyer but this book is slightly disappoint me. There are so many mysteries to unravel in book 2 tho, but I don’t know if I want to continue or not.

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  6. Holly says:

    OMG YES. There are SO many books that I’v been putting off because they’re intimidatingly hyped (Game. of. Thrones.). The hype monster always builds my expectations unrealistically high, which means that more often than not I’m inevitably a bit disappointed when I do read really hyped books, even though I may enjoy them at some level. So glad I’m not the only one who feels this way!! 🙂

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    • emmareadstoomuch says:

      oh my god game of thrones i will probably never read just b/c of the combination of hype + length (the two biggest reasons i put off books)

      hype is so scary for a book!! it makes the expectations too high and also feels like pressure?? so glad you agree!

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  7. theredlippedreviewer says:

    Ugh the whole Shades of Magic series is so mediocre and I was just so happy to be finished with Conjuring of Light so I could leave the trilogy in the dust. I hate just about every single one of the characters in those ding dang books.

    As for the Raven King… it was tough to follow BLLB. It wasn’t perfect, but it was a solid endding to the series. I’ve read the series three times and I like TRK more each time through. Plus the romance is 25/10 and all the slow burns come to fruition and it is very very beautiful. But I can see you hating it lol

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    • emmareadstoomuch says:

      oh my god i would actually fight lila bard for real, in real life. ADSOM was so meh and then AGOS was terrible so…can’t wait to see what fresh hell ACOL brings. glad i’m not the only one not obsessed with those books!!

      hahahaha @ “i can see you hating” the raven king, me too tbh. but that’s very reassuring, i can deal as long as it’s a good ending!!! thanks man ❤


  8. em likes books says:

    I really liked THUG, but I thought Dear Martin by Nic Stone was better! (It’s also way shorter) It’s definitely not as hyped (which..why?) but I highly recommend!

    Also I thought The Cruel Prince was v boring and can’t wait to see what you think! It was one of my first SUPER UNPOPULAR opinions and I didn’t know how to deal with it. I’ve since accepted it, but it prompted a bit of an identity crisis.

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    • emmareadstoomuch says:

      i’m on a waitlist for dear martin on overdrive so that is very exciting!!

      looool i do love a good unpopular opinion! i’m hoping the dark fairytaley vibe pulls through for me but holly black and i don’t get along so…we’ll see.


  9. Mattie @ Living Mattie says:

    Yes I put off books I’m excited for!! Who doesn’t do that?! We need to come up with a name for that so we can just be like “I’ve not read it.. I’m hype-procrastinating” (but obviously a better word than hype-procrastinating). You should definitely read A Conjuring of Light – I know a lot of people who didn’t like the second book and LOVED the last one!

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    • emmareadstoomuch says:

      hype procrastinating works perfectly!! you can even portmanteau it into hyprocrastinating…it’s brilliant. & i am so so relieved to hear that about A Conjuring of Light!!

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  10. Angelica (TheBookCoverGirl) says:

    Great post! I totally get what you mean about all of these, especially The Hate U Give. I personally really liked it but I was also really worried I wouldn’t. And if you want my unsolicited advice, DON’T READ THERE’S SOMEONE INSIDE YOUR HOUSE! It’s not terrible. But it’s also not good. I was so done with all of those characters and was secretly wishing the villain would kill them (I know, how terrible). And I liked The Cruel Prince but like, I can also see why you might hate it, so that’s a gamble you’ll have to take. As for My Plain Jane, I’m so worried they’re gonna screw up Jane Eyre for me and that would be unforgivable!

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    • emmareadstoomuch says:

      THANK YOU FOR THIS V HELPFUL COMMENT. literally the only reason i’m going to read my plain jane = to hold those bastards accountable for however they treat jane eyre

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  11. Mel says:

    oh gosh, I always put off reading my most anticipated books of the year. And when I see a book being super hyped on the blogsphere or twitterverse? It does not go onto the TBR right away because I’m worried I won’t like it. Something that helps is actually waiting until the hype dies down and reading the book then. I also avoid reviews of hyped books because I don’t want to get exceptionally highh and unrealistic expectations. Those things tend to help, but as far as my personally anticipated books go, I have found no answer for why I avoid them for so long.

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    • emmareadstoomuch says:

      great idea for how to avoid the overhype disappointment, but i do love when a megahyped book comes out and everyone’s reading it at the same time – ya just gotta join in the fun once in a while.

      i’m so glad i’m not the only one who puts off reading their most anticipated books but also god how confusing that we all do this


  12. tasya @ the literary huntress says:

    I can totally relate to you, I tend to postpone reading a book when it’s extremely popular or a final book in the series! What if I didn’t enjoy them?? Stephanie Perkins used to be my favorite too, until I read Lola and I just hated it so bad. I want to read A Gathering of Shadows but I hate Lila. That series would be perfect without her, or if she could tone down her attitude and JUST THINK FOR A SECOND. And Emma… I find classics hard to read, but Emma is on another level! It’s hard to read AND I dislike the character :/

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    • emmareadstoomuch says:

      omg clearly your opinions are perfect (stephanie perkins + lola being garbage, a gathering of shadows + lila being a hell monster)…… i’m worried for Emma since you’re obviously always correct


  13. Marie says:

    I’m always so scared of reading hyped books as well and didn’t read THUG right away, because the hype was terrifying. Ultimately, I’m glad I did because it didn’t disappoint, hopefully you’ll feel the same way 😀

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  14. Ellyn says:

    Haha, yes, There’s Someone Inside Your House, I DNF’d at page 1. I’ve never really want ed to read a Stephanie Perkins so I don’t know what I was thinking.
    I haven’t read Emma yet either whoops. I’m kind of putting it off, if you ever want to buddy-read an Austen novel let me know!
    You have so many great books on this list, good luck!

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    • emmareadstoomuch says:

      thank you thank you! i am 99% sure There’s Someone Inside Your House will be a mistake, but i am crying at the idea of you DNFing on the first ppage

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  15. May @ Forever and Everly says:

    I would suggest not reading Renegades at all but at the same time… I need your roast. it would be a fantastic roast (like it always is)

    and also !!! I am VERY scared of reading The Cruel Prince because everyone seems to love it but then there a few people who hate it and make me feel like I might hate it ?? I never had a good relationship with books about fae anyways. BUT I JUST WANT TO LOVE IT

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    • emmareadstoomuch says:

      I REALLY WANT TO UNDERSTAND THE HOLLY BLACK APPEAL. SO BADLY. so with great trepidation i will probably end up reading the cruel prince

      i thought abt taking renegades off my tbr but my pre-review has a good number of likes already and honestly? i’m too vain

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  16. Nerina says:

    You’re very likely to hate “There’s someone inside your house” judging by your review of Isla. I wa pretty disappointed because the premise has promise but the execution is poor.

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